I'm a patched up Crazy

While most of the world is sleeping, I've been lurking around alone.
If I had class, I probably wouldn't be up this late..no, no class till Friday. Well I guess not most of the world..In fact...most of the ppl I talk to, are probably up now, I don't know how long I hang around until I succumb to sleep.

The road is still foggy, but I am starting to make out the paths now. I can get an idea which one to walk. You can take that as little or as huge as you want it, It probably a lot more then you might think, and a lot less then you'll probably thing.

Being half awake, seems to give me freedom to speak whatever I want, well it feels that way. Most people make stupid statements late at night, and feel like idiots the next day. I may be the rare case that sees and acknowledges it...I know I'll probably feel like an idiot XD

Things are so different now then I thought they would ever be, I never thought I'd have anyone reading this blog, never thought I'd learn all the stuff I have, never even considered that I'd get this far, but I'm still barely anywhere!

So much work to do, I'm not complaining, but if it could only get here sooner :/
I don't have quite enough patience for myself. I'll have to make myself have it. There's nothing else to do but work and learn, you cant sit there and think you will be better one day while doing nothing.

I am happy to have these hopes and dreams...I can onnlyy hope they come true.....

I get so tired of all the pain out there, now I sound emo right? Well I said it, the world is a chaotic messed up place. Not right like it is meant to be. I get so tired of all the turmoil and frustration in it. Cant give up though, I'll admit, sometimes human feelings get to me, I just feel like looking to the sky and saying "I give up" and falling flat on my face, but there's no way I can do that, I wont allow myself too. Giving up is a cowards way, A coward gives up, when more could be done, you dont say "Its over", ITS NOT OVER! YOU CAN STILL WORK THROUGH IT, but no, ppl give up, it's a human thing..a sad human thing.

I cant help but wonder if any of my old friends will read this. If so, they probably worry...maybe right? XD

Dont worry, you may think I've changed, and I have, but what you see is whats always been there, I'm just a lot more expressive now as opposed to silent ^ ^
Plus I'm sleepy, so Drainage tends to sound say things when he's sleepy anyway ^_______^ Sheesh, I remember talking to some of you at 5am one time about the idea of us all having the little crystals over our heads like in sims 2, or discussing the end of the world while listening to jazz music! XD Dont call ME weird!

Well actually DO! It makes everything simpler for me and everyone. Being a weirdo rawks anyway, no need to explain your actions when everyone thinks your crazy ^ ^

oh and while I'm still talking about old friends who might be reading...Remember when we used to run out in the fields at night, toy swords in hand, fighting what ever enemy set before us? I remember scaring the enemy's with my crappy kid wolf howl! XD

Every moment is a decision, decide to make the right one. ^____^


Miss the good times ^ ^

They aren't good though because they ended. Now I gotta look to the future.

Well I thought in the least, anyone who reads this may get a kick out of a half functioning brain's thoughts. A lack of sleep is good for wandering thoughts...and fingers are good for typing..and thats where the computer comes in...and now I'm wandering..XD

DOnt Worry It's safE! I'm going to sleep noowwwww.
My blog is informative sometimes.., but it's also a good tool for expression. For me to say things I wouldn't normally say. I'm just saying, You've been warned ^__________^

I must get sleep so I can wake up for more Banjoface Shmiletime! :D